Recently I read a quote posted by Tony Evans,
“God is more interested in our character than in our comfort, He is more interested in our development than in our destination.”
This got me thinking, Why? Why, would God be more interested in my character than in my comfort? Why, would He be more interested in my development than in my destination?
Isn’t He a loving God that wants all the best for His children? Doesn’t that mean spending His fortunes on us to give us everything that we could want? I mean, isn’t my comfort important? Why would I want to be uncomfortable, sick, cold, lonely/alone? Or what about homeless, hungry, unable (unable to do, to be)? Why would God want me to face hardships?
Do I really need to “develop”? Aren’t I something now? I mean, everyone’s always telling me I need to love myself, that I’m a good person, I’m fine just the way that I am. I know there are areas that I need to work on but aren’t I alright the way I am now?
What is our perspective?
I, am a being that will exist forever. I currently reside in a body that is named Esther Wilson. I know that this body will die someday but I, the real I, will exist forever. Now I have to decide how I want to spend forever.
This is not a new thought. One of my favorite movies is Groundhog Day with Bill Murray. In the movie he relives the same day over and over and over and over. An eternity. At first he thinks he can do everything he wants and can get away with it, and he does. Then he begins to think that he is god, “I’m a god. I’m not *the* God… I don’t think.” Then when he realizes that he still can’t get what he wants, he tries to get out, suicide. It doesn’t work. Now his eternity is filled with boredom. (I don’t want to be bored here and now, why would I want to be bored for eternity?)
Then something happens, he faces a situation that he can’t change the way he is now. (Has this ever happened to you?) He does everything he can to change this situation, but every thing that he knows still cannot change it. What now? He starts becoming invested in peoples lives. He starts trying to change peoples lives but everyday everything resets to exactly what it was before.
Then, he starts changing himself.
We are the only ones who control how we are going to spend eternity. Do we want to be afraid for eternity or have someone that we trust? Do we want to face eternity throwing temper tantrums because we don’t like what’s happening or facing the challenges head on knowing Someone’s got our back? Do we really want to spend eternity with ourselves the way we are now?
God wants us to have confidence in ourselves as we grow in Him. He wants us to be willing to change when we need to change and have the courage to stand tall and refuse to move when we’re told that right is wrong. God wants us to be perfect, mature, complete, mentally, morally, in our work ethic, in how we grow as people.
In the book of James chapter1 verses 2-12 we are told that hard times will come, testing will come. We are told to be joyful when there seems to be no reason for joy. (It doesn’t mean that we are to be happy bad things happen.) We are to be happy that through this there will be changes in both us and our surroundings that will lead to something better.
How do I want to spend eternity? I want to spend it with someone important to me. I want to spend it in a relationship that has had all the kinks knocked out of it already. I want to know him and his plans well enough to be able to hold a decent conversation that goes beyond the casual. I don’t want to be full of a complaining attitude or a grumbly heart. I want to be someone that he wants to spend time around. I want to spend it with Jesus.
How do I accomplish this goal? I fight. I fight for more knowledge of Him. I fight for more time with Him. I fight my own selfish desires and urges that accomplish nothing and benefit nobody, not even me in the long run. I keep learning. I keep teaching others what I know.
Now, what about you? How do you want to spend eternity?