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A Letter To You

To You,

To my most handsome, my most beautiful (inside and out) awesome, sons and daughters.

You have been a delight to me. I love how you smile. How you shine when you’re enthused by something. I love how you focus and bear down when it’s time to get serious. I love you. (GOD)

I am asking God what to tell you, what to talk about because I want to uplift and encourage you.

We want you to know that the mistakes you have made do not render you valueless. We want you to know and believe that you are priceless. In God’s eyes, you are worth as much to him as Jesus is, and to Jesus you were worth trading His place in Heaven to take your place in Hell. Yes, because of who He is he did not stay there, but, HE loved you enough to go through/feel/experience every sin. To die. To be judged in your place and take your place in Hell.

Because of that, you now have the right to go into the presence of God as a rightful son/daughter. To have your requests be made known. To request and command miracles, healings. To spread hope and joy wherever you go. To proclaim peace over every place you lay your head.

We can never forget what Jesus saved us from because we fail Him. BUT, we must _not_ allow sin/satan/self to reduce our value, our worth, because when we allow that to happen we tell God his Sacrifice, His Son, was spent foolishly to buy something that is/was worthless.

You are not valueless. Take Faith, cling on to it. Do not let go. Acknowledge that God is……everything He said He is. He is right. We must admit (to the deepest part of out heart) that if HE says I am worth it, who am I to call God a liar.

And,Oh, how well I know how hard it is to accept that. Completely accepting this will shatter your world. You/We will have to completely rethink our world, rethink the impact we make on it.

We ARE world changers.    Because we are the carriers of the real power and presence of God.

Not because of anything we have done but because of what God, what Jesus has done for us.

Be willing to be broken, to fail, to grow, to change, to look beyond yourself and see what God wants you to see.

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No Insurance

As I was sitting down to read today this phrase caught my eye. No insurance.

Not insured. Having no one/nothing to cover/protect you in case of illness or loss. Merriam-Webster defines insurance as: the action or process of insuring or of being insured (assure: make safe) usually against loss or damage by a contingent event (as death, fire, accident, or sickness).

Having lost 2 homes to fire, automobiles to accidents and wages to being sick, the monetary value of insurance has been proven.

But what about my soul? What insurance do I have against the arrows and stones thrown at me in anger by co-workers, parents, children? What safety do I have when I have to let my children grow up and begin to live lives without me? Who protects my soul, my heart, when my love dies, is shattered and relationships I have valued end? Where do I turn for help? Who knows me? Who cares? And, if they care can I trust them?

Who has proven true?

Parents, fail and die. Spouses and children the same. Best friends, try, but can’t always be there nor do they always understand. Who knows? Who understands? Who will protect me? Who will grieve with me? Who will never fail me, never leave me?

In my life there have been very few people who have always been there. Mostly, because I wouldn’t let them. I thought I was the only person I could trust. And even I, failed myself. So, what now? Just give in and die? Stop feeling? Don’t associate with other people? Don’t allow anyone to become important? Stop living? Just exist? Even that doesn’t work. Tried it. Failed.

Who could love me? Who could love me past the barriers, the walls, that I put up? It sounds so trite, so stupid to say it but the reality is, only Jesus could. Only Jesus did.

I called on him because I felt I had lost everything. I had 2 children, was in the highest paying job I’d ever had, was independent, almost everything looked like it was going right. Yet I was plagued with depression, bouts of uncontrollable rage, sexual addictions, suicidal thoughts. Yet, I remembered.

I remembered, at the age of 16 making a deal with God. I had just been in a service where God Moved, where I was prophesied over and I had become completely honest with God. I told Him, “ God, I know what’s waiting for me outside of this building, the depression, the anger and God I don’t want to go to Hell. If I leave this building I’ll go right back to being depressed again. Kill me now, kill me tonight. I don’t want to go to hell. I don’t want to fail you.”

There were mornings I would wake up and hurt because it hadn’t gone away, the anger, the depression. Looking back, I can see myself holding on to that promise. Clinging to the wisp of a promise that I would not fail, that God would not fail, that I would not die as broken as I felt. I held tight, so tight, to that promise, that assurance from God. I always knew He was there. I was just afraid.

One day I had enough. I said, “I can’t go on.” I was working 10 hour shifts every Sunday. My parents had my children in church and I would drive past this one church at 6:30 every Sunday night. One day I said “I can’t do it anymore” and pulled in to the church. Song service was over, the preaching had begun and I slid into the furtherest back seat I could find and broke. For four Sundays I did this. I ended up at the altar, alone, just me and God. Just me and God. No prayer warriors, no pastor, no friends or family. Me and God. As I look back on the years since then, the greatest times of turmoil were when I relied on people. Good people, People who would feel incredibly hurt if they realized how they failed me. Whenever I forget that my insurance (my protection, my safety) is only in God, whenever I put more trust in people than in God, my life fails.

My life has changed so much. When I tell people what I used to be like, no one believes me. But I remember. I was bankrupt, I had no value, no resources. I constantly took and was never able to give. Now I know who my source is, who my best friend is. He has walked with me every moment of every day of my life. Even when I refused to see Him. He has never failed me.

Place your trust in Jesus. Make Him your only source of insurance. He will never fail. He will show you who he made you to be. Don’t cling so tight to who you think you are that you never become who you can be. Let God show you who you truly are, beneath the lies, the anger, the hurt, the empty shell. Let God restore in you the value you were created to have. Be honest with Him. Tell him, “Whatever it takes, Lord. I want to be different. I can’t do this anymore.”

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A question

I have a question.

I just saw a picture that said, ” You can’t have a million dollar income with a $5 mindset.” What does that mean? “Think big to earn big?” “Risk big to gain big?” And, how does this compare to our spiritual attitude? Just underneath that picture was this,

“But whatsoever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, tat I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that come from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ — the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith.” Philippians 3:7-9

I know that in the physical world “think big to earn big” and “no gain without risk,” is the way many people play the game.

Now let’s flip that over to the spiritual side.

When someone truly sells out to God you will see a fundamental shift of priorities. A house to live in and food to eat will still be a priority but the type of shelter and food will change. No longer will we have to have a 2000 sq. ft. plus house with an pool, indoor garage and a 70 inch television. No longer will T-bones twice a week, fish and shrimp every Friday be must haves.

When we _know_ that true wealth doesn’t belong to us and that true riches cannot be bought with money, we will begin to see beyond the very temporary and fleeting treasures.

I have taught children for years and one of the lessons I had to teach was distinguishing between good, better, and best when making decisions. It’s almost unfair to show a 4-5 year old 3 treats: a few pieces of candy, a candy bar and a piece of cake with ice cream and tell them they can only have one. They can have the candy pieces at any time, if they wait an hour they can have the candy bar, another hour and they can have the cake and ice cream. This teaches a process of critical thinking; “How much do I want the big prize? How badly do I want the candy now? Is it worth a little candy now to sit and watch others eat their cake and ice cream?”

This teaches patience, self-control, setting goals and achievements. As a parent and teacher this requires a steadfast knowledge that the process is good even when the child is crying or throwing a tantrum because they can’t have the big treat.

Now picture Satan and God. God wants us to have the big prize and he is willing to give us the big prizes to show us how much he loves us as we wait/strive for the final prize. However, Satan is trying to catch our attention with a short term pleasure/treat that will take our eyes off the prize.

God wants us to dream BIG because He is BIG God and desires to do BIG things in our lives. He wants us to push the envelope of everything we’ve ever been taught about God and what He will do for us. But, when all we are focused on is the “small stuff,” _we_, limit God.

We limit His power in our lives. We don’t give him anything to work with.

If I were to build a sky scrapper my foundation must be deeper and stronger than my foundation for a house. Just the same way Jesus is calling us to the deeper commitment/relationship with Him. He is asking us to risk everything (knowing He will take care of it) to focus on what is most precious to His heart, people.

God could call you as a pastor, an evangelist, a prophet, but just as important are the spiritual moms and dads, teachers, counselors, givers, cleaners, servants, encouragers. There are other positions that are needed and over the coarse of time we will find ourselves filling many or all of these positions. Some for a lifetime, some for a day. ALL for the Glory of His plan.

SO, Dream big, Risk everything, Trust God fully, have Faith and don’t let go or give in when everything gets hard.

Watch what God will do.